i was ten

i was ten when i first wanted to die,i was ten when i first wished to feel the water in my lungs,i was ten when i was misunderstood by my contemporariesi was ten when i felt the abyss between me and my momi was ten when i first find out the world "depression"i was ten when i find out i was otherworldlyi was ten when i first felt the fire,the fire that burns my mind - the youthful self-destroying